Happy Holiday!!

I'll be away for a week.

Happy Holiday everyone!!!! Have a great one okay!!

For Blue Skies

It’s been a long year
Since we last spoke
How’s your halo?
Just between you and I
You and me and the satellites
I never believed you
I only wanted to
Before all of this
What did I miss?
Do you ever get homesick?
I can’t get used to it
I can’t get used to it
I’ll never get used to it
I’ll never get used to it

I’m under that night
I’m under those same stars
We’re in a red car
You asleep at my side
Going in and out of the headlights
Could I have saved you?
Would that’ve betrayed you?
I wanna burn this film
You alone with those pills
What you couldn’t do I will
I forgive you
I’ll forgive you
I’ll forgive you
I forgive you

For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
I’ll forgive you

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Just one of the songs that i like to listen to.

Cave of the Golden Rose part II

Part 9 and 10 are new to me. I don't think they even air in Malaysia. I just preview it a bit and it's totally different from all the other series, except the heroin of course.

Tarabas found a new love in Part 7 and 8, a princess named Angelika. And Ramualdo was turned to an ugly hunchback by Darken. I just realize that they never actually cast Kim Rossi Stuart again in Part 7 and 8, so when in the end of the episod, when the hunchback was released from the curse, they just used the old scene in Part 2. Heh! Nak jimat cost la ni.

I havent watch the last two parts yet. But somehow they have the Black Witch again in these episodes, but it was a different actress. Fantaghiro on the other hand, ended up with someone else. Heh! Penat Tarabas aje kejar dulu2, rupanya end up ngan orang yg ala2 sinbad pulak. So much for true love with Ramualdo. I'll watch it later then, this sinbad is not as handsome as Tarabas and Ramualdo.

Yours Truly...

as requested by Mrs. Zulfattah.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

* fadhilah (tms, tigs)
* fadhil ( start jasin)
* dila (by family and mr apad)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

* lunar_1708
* nur_fadh
* fadh

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

* jururawat2 ku :( --sama la kita farr
* kaki (gara2 stop sukan)
* my not so feminine hands

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

* malay
* jawa
* india plus mana2 ntah lagi ard (menjawab soklan ke ni?)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

* masuk rumah hantu yg hantu dia orang yg pakai costume yang main kejar2, hulur tangan..huhuuhu
* hearing any kind of sound from the back gives me goosebumps.
* sat on the exam yg diambik buat kali ke 3. Kalau fail kena balik

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

* sunscreen from Paula's Choice. Loved it!
* read (anything from sms today, semalam, kelmarin..books ke)
* online juga! sama lagi ngan farr ni.

THREE OF YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESIONS:

* handphone
* watch - a gift from Inn. never took it off, unless for cleaning.
* laptop

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

* sweater (sejuk!!)
* hairband
* headphone

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:

* M. Nasir
* Pink
* Goo Goo Dolls

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS:

* Sentuhan Listrikmu
* For Blue Skies
* Accidently in Love

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

* not being so far from each other :(
* patience
* let the other person be whoever he wants to be.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

* hair
* eyes
* smiles

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:

* has something to do with glue,colored papers, batu2 ke, pen kaler2 stuff like that eg lukis, color etc etc
* basketball
* read

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

* read something from DJ's book.
* talk to apad
* sleep after talking to apad

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

* india- want to see the taj mahal
* korea - saje2 mau jalan
* egypt - piramid!

THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:

* huh? havent thought of it yet.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

* settle the things that is unsettled
* go the places i wanted to go on vacation
* get married to wonderful man and have beautiful and smart children

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:

* can open a very ketat penutip botol with one twist
* lipat my book instead of using a bookmark
* look at pretty girls

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:

* moody when it's the time of the month
* flowery bedsheet
* lots and lots of shoes!!!

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:

* kim rossi stuart
* nicholas rogers
* james latterfly

THREE PERSON WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY :

* arfah
* izah
* ainur

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Yes, berjaya jua. Dah siap dah Mrs. Zulfattah. :)

Cave of the Golden Rose

I'm sure most of you would remember this story. I just watched it again recently and i still like the story. But the version i'm watching is in German.

Fantaghiro looks as beautiful as i remember and Ramualdo..sigh ..handsome siot! (Haha). I like his hair and his smile. Just that the White Witch had too many powder on and sometimes she looked like old-version of Madonna (white hair, black eyebrows) but with wrinkles. Her costume is too much. Then they changed the actress for the White Witch in Part 3, as well as her eldest sister. The new White Witch is younger and doesnt have too much powder on. :p .As for her eldest sister, i think no one would really notice the difference. But i tell you, HUGE difference with the White Witch. Hehe.

Tarabas. Yes. When they introduced Tarabas in Part 5 (btw there are 10 Parts altogether), most of the girls like him immediately. Who doesnt for a man who is tall, beautiful eyes, evil at first but then turned good. Me, no exception.

So, tell me. Who do you like more, Ramualdo or Tarabas?

p/s : Fantaghiro ni suka menggoda la. Sian Tarabas.

I just realise these..

Okay, i have to admit, i am the slowest of the 4 Damen (4 Girls). I decided not to do my Final Year Thesis next semester but the semester after. I see no point of trying to do something that i think i am not ready for. It's not like i am procastinating or something like that, i have another two labs next semester and if possible i want to do the Thesis somewhere else. Try new experience. I know i lack lots of things and i am trying to improve.

So, next semester i have labs and maybe few additional subjects.

It's funny how i always said, lagi setahun and yet tak abis2 lagi blaja ni. Takpe, my time will come. I just extend another semester, it's not that bad, isn't it?

Whatever it is, i'm thinking how am i going to be home for Raya next year. Gue mau pulang. Kangen!!

Its a Great thing when..

..all the series that i watch is taking a six week break. Maksudnya kena la study. Insya Allah, ada la lagi setahun blaja ni (with one extended semester)..

Doakan kejayaan saya ye akak2, adik dan kawan2. Terima kasih banyak2.

I like watching..

Heroes!! My new add to the TV Series that i watch. I used to like Prison Break too, but then the story jadi makin tak menarik and i decided to say goodbye to it. Managed to watch until Episode 14 or 16 je.

Back to Heroes. Cool story!

" From creator/writer Tim Kring comes "Heroes," an epic drama that chronicles the lives of ordinary people who discover they possess extraordinary abilities.

As a total eclipse casts its shadow across the globe, a genetics professor, Mohinder(Sendhil Ramamurthy) in India is led by father's disappearance to uncover a secret theory -- there are people with super powers living among us. A young dreamer, Peter (Milo Ventimiglia) tries to convince his politician brother, Nathan (Adrian Pasdar) that he can fly. A high school cheerleader , Claire (Hayden Panettiere) learns that she is totally indestructible.

A Las Vegas stripper, Niki (Ali Larter), struggling to make ends meet to support her young son, Micah (Noah Gray-Cabey), discovers that her mirror image has a secret. A fugitive from justice, D.L (Leonard Roberts continues to baffle authorities who twice have been unable to contain him.

A gifted artist , Isaac (Santiago Cabrera), whose drug addiction is destroying his life and relationship with his girlfriend, Simone (Tawny Cypress), can paint the future. A down-on-his-luck Los Angeles beat cop, Matt (Greg Grunberg) can hear people's thoughts, which puts him on the trail of an elusive serial killer, Sylar.

In Japan, a young man, Hiro (Masi Oka) develops a way to stop time through sheer will power. Their ultimate destiny is nothing less than saving the world…

The drama is produced by NBC Universal Television Studio."

Sounds merepek? I love it anyways. For those who like these kind of stories, this one is fresh, and the characters are still figuring out their destiny. My favourite so far are Hiro and Peter. Me likey!! Come people, watch2!


p/s: dont know why, but i think when you watch Mohinder closely, ignoring his beard and selebet hair, he's actually kinda cute. Hehe. Ignorence is Bliss :p

What a week!

I managed to wake up early on Friday and Saturday, which was a good thing. On Friday it was because a stomachache (i think its because of the honey-lemon drink from the night before) and on Saturday because i managed to push myself out of bed(Yeay! berjaya jua akhirnya!). On Saturday also i went to the city to buy a birthday present for Tanty and found the plastic wrap for my books. (I love books. Am practising how to read a book without breaking its spine. Managed to do it with Inkheart)

At night, i am pretty excited wrapping all the books. I started ard 9.30 pm and didnt realise that time flew so fast that it was ard 2 am when i wrapped my last book. Called home and finally went to bed at 3 am. And the next morning, i was too pening to wake up early and the laziness was back!( Nooo!!). Then finally woke up ard noon(yes, scold me if you want), took a shower and ate yesterdays leftovers. It was not looking as good as yesterday but i ate it anyway, sayang nak buang. About an hour later, my stomach didnt feel good. It was rumbling, seriously rumbling and rumbling before i vomitted 2 to 3 times. It was not a good feeling. It is still rumbling now and i am eating Müsli before i'll eat anything else. Moral: jgn sayang2 makanan takde orang makan, sayangi perut anda.

friends!!

Mushy?

"Every happy couple's
a unique reflection of
The beauty and the wonder
of the miracle called love."

Emily Matthews

Dah ada bunga..

There is this plant in my apartment. The previous tenant left it here. So there it was, lying there for more than a month, without water. When i moved in, i didnt pay attention to the plant at all. Then one day, i decided to trim all the bad leaves; the one that turned brown/yellow. Then i water the plan not everyday, but when i remember to(heehee). Few days later, somehow i see the plant grew. Its leaves are stronger and pucuk started coming out. And today, dah nmpk bunga.*smiles*

I rearranged everything in my room, except for the study desk, because the internet cable x sampai nk pegi tempat lain. I pushed the big almari baju, rak-rak buku and today, sakit badan. But for the sake of changing, tahan aje la.

Fuhh!!

For a certain reason, i am relieved..Like a very heavy burden has been lifted from me. I feel very very light and new. Ha-ha!

I am so ready to do something else now.

Yeah!

Congrats!!

To dear friends yg akan/dah bertunang; or akan/sudah berkahwin; or akan/sudah menimang cahaya mata (potong mana yg tak berkenaan),

Congrats!!!!!I'm sure you guys are going to be great fiance/wives/husband. Semoga berkekalan jodoh hingga ke akhir hayat. And buat yg akan/sudah menimang cahaya mata, you'll be great parents to such cute babies. My warmest love to all of you.

The sunset

These are todays gambar. Last time the sky was red! See the picture in the middle, that's the drama swasta building.

Happy Birthday Abah!!

Semoga dikurniakan umur yg panjang dan berkat, dimurahkan rezeki dan sentiasa dilindungi Allah. I love you.

You really are the world's greatest dad!!

Things i can see from my window.

1. I can see the most beautiful sunset everyday. The sky is sooo beautiful with many colors. Red, purple, blue, orange...it is really breathtaking. But there is a mosquito/bug net outside my window, so i cannot take pictures from inside my room. I have to go out to the balcony, but then, the view will be blocked by another building. I'll just enjoy the view from my room. And if i have the chance, meaning i am outside or my camera is super duper power, i'll upload a picture of the sunset :)

2. Can see drama swasta for free. Ha-ha! Actually, the other building (the one yg block my sunset tu) is a flat. Org Turki, German and muka-mcm-turki-tapi-bukan (Iran kot,lebanon ke, my juniors call them Asul,dont know what that means) live there. And hari tu masa Raya ada this old man, chasing away some or his kid, dunno and they were really loud. Another case/drama, antara jiran pulak bergaduh. Turki vs German. Bukak tingkap kecik, blinder turun and watch. Hee hee.

3. Just today, around 5 - 6 pm. There was a band (like the school band) playing. They were walking along the street. So i looked out the window (even though it was dark) . Following after the band were children (with their parents of course) with tanglungs. It was their culture/ tradition actually to do that during this time. The story behind it is - They are making loud noises and bring lights along them because fall/winter is cold and quiet and dark. So, konon2 jadi tak sejuk sgt la kot and bising. Begitulah ceritanya.

But most of the time, i keep the window closed. Angin sejukkk!!! Brrrr!!

Fluuu

My cold/ flu/fever/cough has been on and off during the entire week. For few day i my taste bud decided to sleep and my nose ran. I had trouble sleeping too, especially when i have to breathe using my mouth.

I am not well yet but going to be soon, i hope. When i woke up one morning and i could smell again, it was such a wonderful feeling. To be able to smell and to taste food...aaahh.. Well, we only appreciate things only when they are taken away from us.

I wont complain when i fell sick..err..maybe i will, but i will always remember to be thankful, because being sick is not a bad thing. It's a reminder for me to take good care of myself, eat well, sleep well.

For those out there who is healthy, dont forget aa..jaga diri baik2. Kalau sakit gi doktor. I wish you all great health and pls, wish me well too.

Ha-chum!!

Baru je sehari, but sneezing all day isn't fun. Headache. Won't sleep late again. Dah lama dah tak tido lmbt ni.

Yesterday i slept around 3.30 am ++. Woke up for sahur around 5 am. Slept again at 6 am and woke up again at 8.45 am for class. Pas balik klas, after asar prayers, tido smpi maghrib. (3 pm till 5 pm)..Pening2 bgn tido sbb terkejut. I was dreaming actually when suddenly i heard Fatma's voice calling for buka pose. Weird dream. No need to elaborate.

What makes me happy is, i already booked the flights ticket to Dublin and Glasgow. Yeay!!! It's been a long time since i travel. The last time was...last year with mom and dad to Paris, Nice and Monaco. Flights settled, just have to find places to crash and the tourist attractions. I'll be going in December Insya-Allah, during the X-mas break. Hee hee. I'm sooo looking forward for this trip because if sempat also i'll be meeting Mrs. Syikin Yunus, my best friend while i'm at Jasin.

Okay.I want to eat the pill and go to bed.

Ha-chum!

Thank you

I remind myself to say thank you for every single thing that i have, for every single thing a person did for me. Everyone, thank you!!

He said..

I asked Apad, why he repeatedly said "i miss your cooking" as i only cooked for him less than 3 times or 4. Then he said "Sambal tempe mu menawan hatiku". *lol* No wonder i love him, he's so funny. Hee hee.

Lazy

i dunno what has gotten into me, after raya penyakit malas ni makin menjadi2. Should start fasting again. After the tambah jam kot, can buka puasa awal..hehe.

1 Syawal

My Raya was good. The foods were great! We have superb cooks here and they all have their own specialities. For last three rayas we have only one cook for rendang, and this year,since she's not here yet we had different cooks for different lauks.

Let's see, the rewang started ard 10 pm. The guys kupas bawang and did all the cuttings (all 8 of them.Anak2 teruna rajin ni semua). Chef for rendang ayam - Tanty and Fatma, rendang daging - Komal, lodeh - Najib, sambal sotong - me and it would not be complete if there isnt Fatma's kuah kacang. The nasi himpits and lemangs diuruskan oleh juniors. We really divided all the tasks, from the buyings till the cookings. Hmm we had desserts too. Iqbal's and Shafeez's pudding/agar2 and a really tasty Tiramisu made by Ezaid.



The group photo session was funny. The guys mmg agak gila gambar sket, hee hee. But i guess maybe because they are the majority, tak de la segan sgt nk ambik gmbr depan 3 org akak2 ni kan. They had this one songkok and been taking turns to wear it in the picture.

I really really hope this would be the last Aidilfitri here. Looking fwd to spend it at home. Dad's takbir after maghrib prayers, sisters doing the last minute cleaning , Mom being busy in the kitchen will all the Aunties- cooking the dishes for raya, hanging ketupats..i miss all that. Well,for all who read my blog, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri

This is the 4th time me spending Aidilfitri here in Germany. I really hope it would be the last time. Celebrations will be simple.We'll gather at my house on Sunday for the last buka puasa sama2 and then takbir Raya after maghrib prayers. After Isyak, sessi masak memasak by all. And Monday, i'll go to classes and noon, all the makan2 begins.

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Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir dan Batin utk Abah, Mak, Kak Olie, Kak Inn ,Kak Cin & Tok Mak who'll be spending raya at home with all the good foods, utk Aju yg raya kat Korea, sedara mara, Mohd Fadzlee Ab.Razak who I love dearly, Friends who i care so much - you know who you are ;) .Salam kemaafan and may our hearts are filled with love and joy and not to forget, forgiveness. I love you all.

Microelectronics Lab? Today?

I had a group dicussion today for Digital Signal Processing. I have done some of the exercises and we just go through it once again. Then suddenly, the guy said that he cannot stay long because he has another lab to go to. Then i asked, "Is it Microelectronics lab?". Yes it is.

You see, I supposed to be in the lab as well. I thought it's going to be next week but during the class on Tuesday, i kind of miss the part when they changed the date. What is wrong with me? It makes me feel like i dont understand German at all. Kind of embarrased when i said i dont know the lab is today. Ergh!

My lab partner is already in the lab when i walked in. I didnt bring my notes or anything. Just a testpad and my pencil case. We started around 130 pm and finished at 3. We were the first to finish. Lucky my lab partner is nice. Next time, i'll be controlling the mouse.

BCD

It stands for Binary-Coded Decimal. The professor asked me whether i am familiar with the term of maybe even know what does it means. He first asked the class, and when everybody admited that they knew what BCD was, he turned to me and asked, "Even you know BCD?"

Stupidly i answered "Ermm..I am not sure". You see, that's my problem. Sometimes i know the things or equations asked but i just dont remember the names. When he explained what BCD is, i felt so stupid because i was thinking about that earlier. I felt like an idiot the entire hour until the class ends.

So, here's something from Wikipedia.

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BCD

In computing and electronic systems, Binary-coded decimal (BCD) is an encoding for decimal numbers in which each digit is represented by its own binary sequence. Its main virtue is that it allows easier conversion to decimal digits for printing or display. Its drawbacks are the complexity of circuits needed to impliment mathematical functions and the space wasted in the encoding - 6 wasted paterns per digit. Even though the importance of BCD has diminished, it is still encountered.

In BCD, a digit is usually represented by four bits which, in general, represent the values/digits/characters 0-9. Other combinations are sometimes used for sign or other indications.

Basics

To BCD-encode a decimal number using the common encoding, each digit is encoded using the four-bit binary bit pattern for each digit. For example, the number 127 would be:

0001 0010 0111

Since most computers store data in eight-bit bytes, there are two common ways of storing four-bit BCD digits in those bytes:

• each digit is stored in one byte, and the other four bits are then set to all zeros, all ones (as in the EBCDIC code), or to 0011 (as in the ASCII code)
• two digits are stored in each byte.

Unlike pure binary encodings large numbers can easily be displayed by splitting up the nibbles and sending each to a different character with the logic for each display being a simple mapping function. Converting from pure binary to decimal for display is much harder involving integer multiplication or divide operations. The BIOS (Basic Input/Output Systems) in many PCs keeps the date and time in BCD format, probably for historical reasons (it avoided the need for binary to ASCII conversion).

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I wont forget this the next time. Even if i dont understand everything written up here. Hah!

My Room(s)

I've been moving from room to room since last semester. From 31-02-07 to 31-02-05, then to another hostel 73-05-05.

This is my first room, 207.

This is my 2nd room, 207, the one that I lived with my friend.





This is the last one in Sankt Martin Strasse.

Programming? Physics? Pening...

I'm taking a programming course for this semester. It's almost the same as trying to get my head blown off by the end of the day. Me and programming (or Physics), not a good combination. From UiTM Shah Alam i hated programming (and Physics).

Why is it that I always end up doing the subjects that i dislike (hate is a very strong word).

Like in Form 5, i never like Physics and i love Chemistry. I got C4 for my Physics ( mencacatkan sijil je) and for Chemistry A2, kot. So, i applied for Chemical Engineering in UTM and i got it. On my 2nd day of orientation, i received the A-Level German offer. Something that i could not refuse. One of the reason is because my dad had the you-must-take-this-offer look, and the other and main reason was the scholarship. My parents could save a lot on paying expensive college fees. Plus, i have the opportunity to study abroad. Back to the Physic-thingy, I spend 2 years learning Physics at UiTM plus another year in Germany and had to leave my beloved subject Chemistry behind.

Just my luck. I had a very ..ermm i shud say genius teacher for the first semester. Genius means he is really smart, but he has difficulities of explaining things to his students. I once ended up sleeping through his entire class sbb pening. Budak nakal ni, but at the end of the class i explained to him why i slept. So, that didn't exactly help me to like Physics at all. Untill like the 3rd sem, they changed the teachers. Thank God!! Pn. Nazlinda explained quite clearly, although i was still a bit loss, but it's okay. I don't dislike Physics like before.

In Germany, my luck with Physics didnt get any better. Another genius taught my class. This one, was a nobel award candidate. Great! Another spirit booster. So, i didnt go to most of his classes (I can count with my fingers how many times did i go) .Who told him to ask about Mao Tse Tung when we told him we come from Malaysia. It's MALAYSIA, i know nothing about the history of China. Lucky during my 2nd Semester, the teacher was kind of cute. (There were 2 teachers, an elder man who taught all the theories and of course the one that i'm referring to is the younger one, who conducted the exercise hour). Never failed to attend that class. Tee hee hee.

Back on Programming..I dont like it, but i have to do it. On my first semester, i failed the programming class. In fact, all four girls failed. We had to repeat and take extra courses to improve our programming skills. Boleh la, tak de la nk kata tak pandai sgt programming,i know just the basics. But not that good. The professor, the one that failed us, passed away after we passed the exam. Heart attack. But not because we passed the exam, but maybe it's his time. For this semester, i'll be having headache every Wednesday. I haven't touch the programming book for almost two years. Mmg la pening bila nk ingat balik. Ouh, the Chinese guy, Lee ,he is in the same class. And to him, i dont know anything about programming. Because i asked him one question last time because i didnt understand what the teacher was saying. And his answer was "Pointer ni kalau you belum belajar mmg susah nk faham" . I told him i have learned about pointer before and his reaction was," Eh, bila you belajar?" .Okay, fine. The programming class, the one that i failed ada je taught pointer. It made me think that to him my knowledge about programing is nil.

So, I'm digging up the old books and notes and my aim is to pass this exam and show Lee that i'm not an idiot. Wish me luck on that. and the other 8 subjects i'm having.

New Semester

It has begun. For three weeks now and i am still in my lazy mode (rephrase : i am being my usual self). My notes still in the beg, i haven't sort it out yet. Normally i would put them in a ring file and put labels to them. It wont take much time pun, but i am that lazy right now. (K.Inn, dont tell dad tau.hee hee)

I'm taking 7 subjects for this semester. I don't know how i'm going to manage that, but i will. If i work hard enough and pass all the exam for this semester, i'll be having two labs and probably one elective subject, or maybe two. And if possible, i can also do my final year project and will be coming home soon after that. But if not, i have to wait for another semester before i can fly back home for good. Dad told me to take my own time to finish my study, it's okay to extend one or two semester, rather than do everything at once and fail. True.

So, focus on this sem and worry about the next one later. If i worry much about my next sem now, it means that for this sem my energy and focus won't be 100%. Huh! Okay dah merepek ni. I'd better stop now and organize my ring file. That's a start.

Wish me luck for this semester!!!!

Homesick

My new telekung that i brought here has my moms scent..

I miss home..

It's been a long time

Aaahh... at last, jumpa jumpa internet. I'm at school. My new place still doesnt have internet yet. Will arrange it as soon as possible. Bosan gile takde internet.

Updates will be made after ada internet. It was indeed a GREAT summer break.

Later dude!

How my Practical ends.

Well, i can say today is my last day here in this Lab. Yeay. I have finished my practical, but unfortunately without any good result. I mean, the experiment has some flaws that has to be corected and i have no time to do so. Pity.

Now i must write my report. And have to say, it is not quite easy as in i must write the report using all the technical terms and so. Muehehe. Cakap German pun tunggang langgang. I'll try my best though.

Read the newspaper. Nothing much. Read that some ex-fiance of the famous reality show winner wrote a book (whoaaa, org lain pun pernah putus tunang dik, takde la smpi nk buat buku). Then some more ragut cases. I think they should cut tangan org yg meragut tu. If sekali kena masuk penjara tak insaf2. And frankly i am afraid to bawak handbag or jalan sorang (selalu jugak jalan2 sorang masa kat Shah Alam dulu and at home also, now dah tak berani.)

Today is Thursday. Then besok Friday. THEN SATURDAY BALIK MALAYSIA!!!! YEAYEAY!!!! Excited? VERY!!

Balik kampung..ooo..ooo..ooo balik kampung...ooo..ooo..ooo balik kampung...hati girang.



P/s: I watched gokusen2.Nasib baik ada la jugak mende belum tgk. Kalau tak mmg bosan gile.Yankumi.Fight-oh. OH!

Bored

I surrender. I cannot live alone. On Friday, i was bored to death. I was too lazy to cook so i went out and bought 'doner teller' (err..kebab pinggan kalau ditranslate secara langsung). It is kebab meat, and salat and a portion of rice or pommes/fries. Makan tak habis sbb have no appetite. Simpan untuk esok je la.

I made a list of things to do but i didnt do them. I read "The Amulet of Samarkand" all day long. The book is okay. Except for the few words i didnt understand. It's about a magician boy, kind of like Harry Potter but this one darker. The boy summoned a djinn instead of having a wand and do the magic all by himself. The djinn does the magic for them.

On Saturday, baru la ada mood nak hidup. I washed my clothes, i watched movies (Kindaichi and some other movies i copied from my friends). On Sunday, time flew without me realising it (not that i didnt realise it, buat2 tatau je and buat keje lmbt2, mmg la time flies).

Today, pulangkan kunci pada tuan rumah and tomorrow will pick up the new one. Mula2 the landlord complained about the window, he told me to clean it up. The dia buat demo, ni ada pembersih tingkap ni, kena buat mcm ni..Then he ended up wiping and cleaning both the windows. He mentioned, awak kecik ni tak sampai la kot. Hehs. Some of the advantages of being small. At least i dont have to clean the windows. And also, he said we painted the walls very nicely. Hehehehe. I bet he guessed me and Tanty painted the room. Imagine two cute girls and both with cute size painting the room. So, ckp okay la kan. Good Job!!! Hehehe.

Have to wait for 3 parcels. I wonder when sampai..

Birthday Blues

Today is my birthday.17th August. And never, in my 24 years of life, i had to celebrate it alone. I dont like it.

My friends went back to Malaysia yesterday. Well, it supposed to be today but since they have to catch an early train o the airport, they set off yesterday evening. Tanty baked or should made i say kek batik. Very thoughtful of her. And before they leave, we kind of celebrated my birthday and i received my first birthday present for this year. A pair of Swarovski earing. Uuuuuu...

A card from Apad that i received 2 days ago. I opened it at 12 midnite. Present? Will have to wait.

Then at school i sms'ed Lee. I told him today is my birthday (mintak hadiah skali semenanya.hehe :p). And he said, how about mee rebus lee? I said, okay. Good, at least i dont have to cook today. Then Lee told me Greg and another guy (Jin Yi kot nama dia) are coming.

We all ate together and it was kind of celebrating my birthday. At night we went out to eat cake, but cake yg tak sedap je ada kat cafe and we settled for ice cream instead (I drank coke aje). Tapi, thanks LEE for making my birthday different from what i used to have. And it is always the company that i want, not presents (if both ada mmg lagi bagus :))

I love you

I remember the day that grandpa fell. It was the night of my 13th birthday. Grandma called and said that grandpa suddenly collapsed form the chair. We rushed to their house. And since that day, my grandpa could never walk again. He was bed-ridden. He could not eat solid food and could barely talk. Almost every day our relatives would come and visit. There were also some faces that i did not recognize. We had tried many things to cure him from traditional to modern medication, but nothing worked.

Almost a year later, i had to go to this Girls Scout Camping trip. I went back home with my friend as planned. My dad and her dad are friends as it is easier. On the way back home, her dad suddenly started saying, " Tok Bah sakit dah lama kan." I replied, " Aah, nak dekat setahun dah." Then he told me that grandpa passed away that morning. I felt tears running down my cheeks. I couldn't believe the news. When i reached home, everything was already settled. Grandpa was already buried and i didn't have the chance to see him for the last time. Tok Bah, I love you and may you rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.


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It was my first summer holiday. Been looking forward to spend my holiday with my family and friends. My Nek has been bed ridden for some months. My aunt took care of her. It was my first time also seeing her sick. I remember her being healthy almost all of the time. My dad asked me to help my aunt and my mom to change Nek's clothes and put some lotion so that her skin won't dry. I was the only granddaughter around at that time. My dad asked me to talk also to Nek because i had been away for quite some time.

I spoke to her. Slowly, when no one was looking at me.

"Nek, Dila ni. Dila balik cuti. Sebulan je ni. Nek cepat2 baik tau." I knew that Kak Inn is closer to her amongst us sisters and so i added, " Kak Inn tgh sibuk lagi ni. Dia tak sempat nak dtg tgk Nek. Nanti dia dah abis kerja mesti dia dtg sini tgk Nek". At least Nek knew that Inn was busy and will come to visit her later.

Later that night, i went and met up with Hyeda and i slept over at her house. That morning dad called. "Dila, Nek dah meninggal."

I was shocked. Hyeda drove me to my aunt's appartment as my dad was busy arranging for her jenazah to be brought home to Batu Pahat. Everything went smoothly and her jenazah was brought home to our house first. Yesterday i helped my aunt to change Nek's clothes and today i help while others bathed her for the last time.

I am glad to be home during that summer. I got to see my Nek for the last time. Nek, i love you too and may u too rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.


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It is important to say "I love you" to the person we love. And it's never too soon to say it.

Shortest Summer

Yes. For only about two months. Few days before World Cup started and it ended on 31th July. Since when August become a rainy season? The weather here is crazy.

No more playing basketball.

Bangun pagi mendung nak hujan. Tengah hari sikit hujan terus. Kadang2 hujan lebat. Tapi hari2 memang akan gerimis.

Am looking forward to be in Malaysia again.

Takde mood dah..

aida balik jumaat ni..

fatma and tanty balik mgu depan..

dila balik mgu lagi satu..sorang2..

kena tinggal sini seminggu lebih sorang2..

uwaaaaa!!!!!

i am needed for..

1. Teman diorg tgk cite hantu. Especially part when the hantu keluar lama sket and no one dares to watch. I am a penakut myself.

2. Explain what i understand from the ghost story yg suka berbelit-belit cerita dia.

3. Bukakkan botol Hohes-C yg ketat. Mostly because they tried to open it before i did, helps me'loose'kan lagi cap dia. Hee hee.

4. Supplier ubat. I have stock ubat selsema and panadol. Bile demam atau pening atau selsema, sini la kaunter ubat. This time, bile dah sebulan lagi nk balik and i fell sick, i have none left.

5. If diorg ada cut yg berdarah and memerlukan plaster or sapu minyak, saya lah orgnya. Nurse sambilan ni.

Hmm..dah tak ingat apa lagi. Rasanya ni dulu kot. If ingat boleh tambah lagi.

Kipas

Ada ke patut, org tinggal lagi tiga minggu kat sini baru semalam si Carlos ni ckp.

" Saya lupa nk bgtau awak. Awak semenanya bole beli kipas letak kat lab. Pastu leh claim and biar kipas tu kat lab je."

Memang nk kena la budak ni. Start Isnin lepas cuaca dah sejuk balik sket2 sbb ujan. Baru la nk ckp psl kipas. Grrrrr!!!

Makan

I eat at least 3 times a day. I usually don't have time for breakfast, then i have my lunch, my 2nd lunch and dinner. No supper.

It's not too much kan kan.

Hehe

End of Semester

It's finally school holiday (me excluded). Many things happened during this semester. Things that i can learn from.

I am thankful that God send me here. I love the place, i love the people i am with and i love the experiences and lessons that i've learned.

We have 4 batches of students here. Total of people= 10. 4 girls and 6 boys. It's a small family. And this semester, we grew closer, like real brothers and sisters. We fought but not for long. We expressed our opinion and still respect what others might say or think. We played and made faces. We made each other laugh. We cooked and ate together. That's what family do, right?

There were times when i felt i dont belong here, but when i'm outside, i know this is my home.

One year left. And i want to make it as memorable as possible.

Dear Offenburger, i love you guys.

My Sunday

Aida cooked for all of us; juniors included, yesterday. She said " Masak cincai2 je ni"

Cincai sgt.

Nasi tomato, ayam beriani, daging masak itam, kerabu, and two types of agar2. I wonder what is her definition of "masak beriya".

Exam week is over and yesterday was our first get-together. Fun!!! plus funny and merepek2 sikit. Our conversation is about everything that is happening in Malaysia. The boys, mind you, they gossiped like girls. Nak kata lagi hebat pun betul jugak.

And of course termasuklah cerita Siti and her beau. "Mesti dulu masak suka nyanyi skali tu dgn makan bersepah, sbb tu kawen ngan org tua and dpt anak tiri."

Hehe. Almost true. Makan bersepah tu maksudnya, if we eat something like rice, then ada satu dua butir kat tepi bibir and kita tak sedar mende tu ada.

Then Lee added, "Kamu percaya benda2 mcm itu?"

We answered, " No la. Tu semua saying only. Chinese takde ke mende2 mcm tu jugak?"

With that question, we ended up learning some of palm reading knowledge that Lee knows. Mostly about love life, hehe. For example, if you put your palms together andyou can see a "u" shaped line. The curvier the "u", the more handsome of beautiful your partner will be.

One more thing is about how many person that truly loves you in this life. Erm, its quite difficult to describe where the lines are but, the left hand shows how many truly loves you and the right hand will show how many will love you. Erm, to make things easier, lets say the right hand shows 3 lines, and the left hand shows 1. It means that 3 person will love you in this life but only 1 that truly loves you ( the other two gives up sor something like that)

Everyone has 1 line on their left hand. But not me. Hehehehe!!!

Then, with our full stomach, we went out to play basketball. Senak rasa! and heavy too.

PS: Palm reading tu for fun only. Bukannya betul 100% pun. I am in love with one person only.

Something to share

I read these from a book and feel like sharing what i read here.

"Life has it flaws, defects, corners and edges. Only those who accept this reality and integrate it into their existance can lead a really full life."

"Today's mishaps are often tomorrow's anecdotes."

"Mistakes are opportunity to do something better next time. Mistakes are learning experience."

"Don't strive to be perfect, but competent and unique."

From : How to Simplify Your Life

Dealova

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapu tanpa dirimu
Karena hati telah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwaku selalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
Bayangmu seakan-akan

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang ku hela kau selalu ada

Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang

Dan sepi..

Holiday.

Not for me, i have to continue working until 25th August. My flight back is on 26th. Hee hee. See that rush to be at home people.

To be honest, there's not much time left. I have to finish my tasks before balik ni. Kalau tak this semester would be sia-sia.

One step at a time.

I can do it. Come on!!!

Lega dah..

This morning i learned that my dad and my sis are on the same island where tsunami took place. This afternoon i learned that they are okay (Syukur Alhamdulillah). My dad had an interview there, regarding his pengakap thingy. Then one of the reporters asked him about Datuk K and Siti.
Hahaha. Tak relevan langsung rasanya.

I am really really glad they are ok. They will be back in Malaysia on 24th July. I pray for their safety and health there.

I am amazed how well my mom and dad raised their girls back then when they were working. And how great my sisters are. I hope i can be a good mother too.

Thanks Allah. Alhamdulillah.

Rumbling

Rasa hati tak sedap.
Makan pun rasa tak lalu je.
Tapi tidur lena je,lebih pun ada.
Cuma rasa ada dlm satu bilik dgn Dementor.

I want to feel happy.
Sing songs out of tune.
Smile whenever i feel like smiling.

EXPECTO PATRONUMMMMM!!!!

wrong spell eh?
hehehe

Rumors has it that JK Rowling is going to kill Harry Potter in her last book.
Dem.

Dulu lain, sekarang lain

My ex used to be someone yg agak 'penyegan'. I remember the day at the airport(masa mula2 fly) and he just stayed with his friends, didn't bother to come up to my family to say hi. He told me "seganlah". And the day when my sis and I met at MidValley. Both of us were with our ex-s. Hers didnt go and say hi to my ex and vice versa. Again alasan yg sama- segan.

Now, my bf is someone who looks up my sisters like his own sis, jokes with them and even picks me up from the airport so that my father doesn't have to drive before subuh to pick me up. At the airport, he was with my family most of the time and siap tumpang kereta my sis masa nk balik. He is also penyegan, but he knows when to be penyegan and when to be polite to my family.

I am very lucky, kan kan =)

PS: My first entry was about how i felt unlucky with stuffs. Writing helps me to see what i have in life and be thankful for them. And thanks Kak Inn, for the wonderful advises. And Cin, congrats for this coming September. And i'll be moving to my new room this October.Yeay!

Bird Song

We were playing basketball when i suddenly have the mood to sing all the songs that learnt during primary school.

From "Ais Kacang", "Tiga Sekawan" ,"Air Terjun"..hmm..teringat masa kat skolah dulu.

My friends started to sing along too. It was fun.

Then my junior said there was one song about a bird and he said it was a sad song. Then he started singing..

"Aku burung,burung tiung berperi
Riang di dalam sangkar ku ini."

After that verse, we started to laugh because it was the wrong song. And he did sing it with a sad face. Hahaha.

Then we continued singing the "Burung Tiung" song sambil gelak2.

I am 24 years old and i feel like 17 .*grins* :p

PS: Ada sape2 tau lagu psl kuih koci tak? Rasa mcm ada lagu tu, tapi tak ingat. Lagu burung yg sedih pun ada jugak.Tapi tak ingat jugak lagu tu sampai abis mcm mn.

Currently reading How to Simplify Your Life

Dear you

I love you.

Lemas

Rasa lemas dlm lab ni. Lagi2 kalau si Carlos ni buat kerja ngan laser dia.Pakai safety goggles pun berpeluh2 cermin dia sbb panas.

Mana ada aircond kat sini.

Aaaaaa...balik la mcm ni.

Rasa mcm duduk dlm bilik sauna je.

Ok la. BALIK!!!

I LOVE being in LOVE Part III

The next morning we arrived in Kedah. I haven't told you that during our trip to Kedah i was having a terrible cough. Had to bring my cough syrup every where i go.(Poor me) We arrived on time. I managed to sneak in to jumpa my lovely friend before the tok imam and semua sedara mara ada depan pintu dan mem'block' jalan. Then dgn secara tak rasminya i became one of the photographer. Took a video of the bridegroom masa akad nikah and showed it to my friend. I love the smile on her face when she saw that video. Lucky my cough decided untuk tidak memalukan saya semasa berada di tgh2 org ramai tu.

Pagi kenduri kat umah perempuan and petang, kenduri kat umah lelaki. Alang2 dah drive jauh2 smpi Kedah tu, stay for the umah lelaki jugak. Lagipun, baru sgt smpi, takkan nk balik terus. Pengsan nnt org yg kena drive tu. Makan nasi minyak la satu ari tu.

Dah petang baru la nk balik. Masa kat umah pengantin tu ada la kot we flirted with each other a bit (kena tempias org kawen ni), but that was it, he still didnt tell me the thing that he wanted to say. Masa balik, ada some of our friends decided to tumpang the car. 2 org je dlm kete tu, muat sgt kalau nk tumpang pun. Jadi lah ada la 4 org dlm kete. Tak boleh la nk tanya dia lagi skali sbb ada org lain. Sampai KL, jadilah only the two of us again. I asked again about the thing that he wanted to say. Sekali lagi muka dia pun berubah. Serba salah nk cakap. Tired of him acting that way, i hugged my pillow and buat2 nk tido. I know he hates driving alone, takde teman nk borak kalau ngantuk. When he saw me hugging the pillow, he said "takde2, takleh tido" and tried to take the pillow away from me. He didn't get the pillow, instead his hand ended up tangled with mine. It was sort of "the moment" for us (Mcm mata bertentang pastu tersuka ke mcm tu la, tapi tak berani pun pandang muka dia masa tu). Nasib baik la malam..kalau tak sure nmpk merah muka. Both of us not sure what to do. Masing2 terdiam and only God knows how fast my heart beats. Dah masing2 terdiam tu, our hands remained that way. Neither he nor I pulled our hands away. It was quite a while before he had to change the gear and removed his hand. Pastu things jadi a bit awkward sampai la ada benda lain yg nk diborakkan.

Later on that night, i asked him again. I wanted to hear it from him that he likes me ke, has feelings for me ke..He kept quiet. Then he said " Susah nk ckp. Serba salah. Takut pun ada". Finally, i put my hand on his chest. I was thinking "If he likes me, he'll take my hand. If not..".Belum habis fikir lagi, slowly he took my hand. His hand was cold from the aircond. But his grip was firm. His serba salah muka was gone replaced by what i saw as relief/ muka yg dah lega.

Well, tu la mcm mana we started. That morning he finally confessed that he likes me dan hati ni sentiasa bebunga2 smpi la ke ari ni. Hehehe. I love being in love with him. Thank you God, for giving me such wonderful people in my life and for giving me so much love from family, friends and of course, him.

I LOVE being in LOVE Part II

After the meeting in front of kedai kain tu, we plan to go Kedah together a week later for our friends wedding. There were 5 people in the actual plan, but as the date grew nearer, they canceled and one of them actually canceled the night before. (Hehs!) Owh, i made a discovery too during the week. It turns out that his housemate is the boyfriend of my close friend. Kecik je Malaysia ni, pusing2 situ jugak.

So, the trip to Kedah. Where to start? My sis drove all the way from BP to KL (because i can't drive) before lending her car to me. I met up with him in Serdang kot (sorry if salah tempat ye). He was with a couple of friends, including the ones I mentioned above. Pergi jamming jap (diorg la, not me) then pergi minum. Masa kat kedai minum tu, his friends asyik la duduk menyakat2 us. I thought it was nothing la kot, as it was my first meeting with them. He on the other hand was super happy. At times i felt like i was left out when they were making jokes (sbb joke pasal me and him also sbb tak fhm the joke.)

Next stop, Bukit Permai. I love this place (before dia jadi tempat budak2 dating and buat mende2 ntah apa2). I love looking at the night sky, stars sparkling. I love looking at the scenary, I like looking KL blinking with colorful lights. Kat sini la my girl friend asked me whether i like Apad or not. She said she never saw him this happy. My answer was, "Hmm...Kawan baik je. Takde apa2 pun."(yeah, rite) I asked with her about few things about him (korek2 rahsia sket..haha). At that time, i was no longer sure about my feelings towards him.

Suka ke aku kat dia ni?

One thing i was sure about was about my ex. That day, i realised that i am completely over him. It took me about one year. He was my first boyfriend and i broke it off because he was two timing. Btw,we met him too that night. Pergi kedai makan lagi (Aiyo, these guys sure can eat a lot). Ada ajak jugak nk pergi ke tak Kedah tu. He was interested but he had to do something else.

So, me, Apad and the long road to Kedah.

I brought a small pillow along (baru best kalau nk tido :)). Owh, i forgot about one thing. He had said that he wanted to tell me something when i met him. I was still in Germany that time. I think i did asked him on our first meeting (depan kedai kain tuuu), tapi he said nanti kot. Lalu saya tanya la dia balik masa on the way pergi Kedah tu. Semua topik pun dah abis cerita, tingal tu je dia tak jawab lagi.

His facial expressions changed. Mcm takut ada, malu2 ada, mcm sakit perut ada, mcm tak tahan nk pegi toilet pun ada ( :p jgn marah) .Tapi at that time, dah dapat tangkap dah apa yg dia nk ckp. I stopped asking because i wasnt sure i want to hear it or not (padan muka, tanya lagi byk2).

I began asking myself. Ye ke? Suka? tak? Kawan je? Abis tu nnt pas ni mcm mana lak? I dont want our friendship to end if apa2 nnt jadi.

Fikir punya fikir punya fikir, jadi ngantuk. Hee hee. I hugged the pillow and began to cari the best way/position to sleep. I chatted with him some more before tertidur..Dah kena drive sorang2. Suruh cari topik lain nk borak tak nk.

smbg lagik..

I am still waiting for something exciting/wonderful to happen in my life. I deserve it.

I LOVE being in LOVE Part I

It has been almost two years. I have known him for about 5 years now (or was it 6?). Either way he's my best guy friend.

He has been my perunding masalah or counselor on relationships (friends,boyfriends..). Funny because we never met after our A-Level exams eventhough we were that close. I continued with the GMI thingy and i don't quite remember what he did at that time. Then my time to further my studies here had come. He didn't even send me off. Call also takde. Takpe la i thought, he was busy with his girlfriends la kot.

We talked mostly on the phone when i'm here. And one day i was in a problem that required his help. It was a very childish problem when i think about it, but its how WE started anyways. We pretended to be a couple (konon2 nk cover la). The pretending took about two or three months. During that time i act as usual je la, and my feelings for him was just the same as before ;-as friends. Then September came, i was back to Malaysia for summer holidays. When i was boarding the plane, i have this feeling that something wonderful is going to happen..or maybe i was just excited to be home again after a almost a year..hmm.could be both reason la kot.

I sms-ed him. It was his birthday when i arrived. I said that i am back in Malaysia specially for his birthday (gurau kawan2 je ni/kidding2). Hmm..we met one week later in front of kedai kain near in his hometown. My family was there too, tgh cari kain. I was quite nervous as we havent met for two years ( He was busy also the first year i balik, busy ngan apa ntah).

And then he called , ckp dah ada depan kedai. I went up to meet him. We exchanged hellos and went to the nearest kedai minum. I thought i was the one who's nervous, rupanya dia lagi la nervous. He didnt dare to look at me staright in the eye. OMG!!Budak ni mmg nk kena ni.I was right in front of him and he was looking at his glass, pandang meja, pandang tepi. At that time, i still anggap him as my friend and kenalkan kat my dad also as my friend je, so tak dpt tangkap la why he was so malu2 kucing with me masa tu. Sbb geram asyik tak pandang org je, i hit him hard on the shoulder. After that baru la berani sket dia nk pandang..

tbc..

Only after things like these happened..

I read the news about the Indian woman who commited suicide because of her problems with her husband. What made things more sad that she brought along her children. She hold on her children tightly before got hit by the train. One of the daughter survived and saved her brother. Poor girl. Not only she had to see her family dies in front of her, she also had their blood on her face and clothes. Trauma i tell you.

Timbalan Menteri Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat said that Lembaga Penapis Filem should censor suicide scenes in films as it gives negative impact to the viewers. Suicide scene at the railway in most of Tamil films is one of the example.

Tarik nafas dalam2...Go!

How about rape scenes in cekerarama, drama, telemovies or the vcds? That's bad influence too. Especially to kids because kids nowadays mmg dah sangat2 pandai dgn all the technologies. Nak pasang vcd, dvd..observe their mummy once lepas tu dah pandai dah pasang sendiri. Its only the matter of time before they got their hands on the x-rated vcds. Sometimes cerita tu is being showed during prime time, meaning kids and their parents tgk cite tu sama2 ke. Tak ke susah nak jawab if the kids ask " Apa yg diorg buat tu?". Yes, i know benda tu benda betul happen dlm masyarakat kita, tapi tak rasa ke dari situ jugak they got their ideas. Scenes like women screaming as their clothes being torn, jadi nampak badan sket and their baju d****, then tunjuk muka lelaki yg sungguh gatall dan menggelikan...eeewww..Please..Stop these scenes. Better show them how to mematahkan serangan or the right thing to do after benda tu jd (report police,bgtau sape2 yg sepatutnya, counseling utk trauma).

The same goes to dialog ntah apa2. Cth " Kau ok? Aku ok. Kau ok?" Kenapa la ada dialog2 mcm ni. They should revise the dialogs so that changes could be made.

And also some menteri suggested that we should change the night clubs closing time to 5 am. The reason is because pelancong2 asing have nothing to do at night as the shops are closed at 10 pm. Hello, in Germany the shops closed at 7 pm and sometimes on special occasions at 8 pm. If the place itself cantik, takde sampah, org friendly, sistem pengangkutan bagus etc etc, mmg takde masalah langsung pun.


Who am I to say all this? Just a plain student with average grades. Of course, the menteri2 and org yg lebih tua tu knew better.

Cherry Plucking Part 2

It was fun!! It was not in my to do list (like petik strawberry) but when the opportunity comes, i took it. His house was 6 km away from ours. He showed us the bicycle way, but (ehem) no one really pay attention as we are already in his car, getting all excited to pick the cherries as much as we can. Yes, as much as we like also.

I bought flowers for them as i don't know what else to give. Datang rumah orang petik ceri kena la pandai berbahasa (as well as speaking German). We climbed on a ladder and picked the cherries that were within our reach. And we plucked a bucket full. Hee hee. Even he said that we plucked a lot. Segan ada, but seeing all the black-shiny-and-sweet cherries on the tree, calling us, we plucked la jugak lagi sket (alasan je,hee hee). Gave some to Lee and the boys. Here are some pictures from the cherry plucking and also a cake that i bake guna instant je (I cannot bake cake, for real!).

See the kilat-ness and how beautiful these cherries are. Sedap!!Petik terus masuk mulut dulu. Fill the stomach first, then the bucket. hehe.

A bucket full of cherries!!Nyum!


Cake yg nampak sedap. Rasa also sedap. Thanks Dr. Oetker ;p

I will have to make another to do list as i have about a year lagi kot insya Allah. Strawberry picking, sledging, jalan2 also tak abis lagi...sigh*

Chiayo!!!

Again and again and again..

Got very useful message from a very dear friend of mine.

"Most people xde skill to read other people's mind. and ur friend obviously cant read urs & ur body language. Maybe next time if ade mcm ni, u can tell the friend to give u 5 minutes ke to finish wat u r doing at the moment."

Conflicts always happen no matter how hard we try to avoid them. Even when we thought we are having a good time, suddenly our friends' face turn sour. Why? Sometimes we can figure it out but most of the time we spent more time wondering what's wrong rather than asking them why.(I always do the wondering part, face to face never work for me.)

As for me, i am the black and also white sheep here. Sometimes i do feel i belong here. Sometimes, i just don't.

I need to find books on communicating and stuff like that. Or maybe the "How to Make Anyone Fall in Love With You" book. Hee hee. (Caught one of my juniors reading that book. It is a learn-how-to-flirt book. I still tease him about the book though.)

Empty

I have no mood to continue with my work today. Maybe i have been thinking so much. About me, family, friends, future, present, past.. Pening!!

At some point i am proud with myself, and at some, i just dont.

I need to find me.

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They knew.
They knew and yet they keep quiet.

Syhhhh....

Me on Friday

On Friday I dont usually do much. I just sit here. Fikir nak buat apa. And when I have the mood, I'll do my work. If not, it will be like today ; I spent my whole day watching movie trailers. Balik ni nak download le kot.Hehehe. Bukan nk jadi tokey pirate, just nk tgk saje2.

The Lake House - Hollywood version of Il Mare. I haven't watch the Hollywood version yet but i have watched the Korean version. Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves kind of look 'old', maybe because in the Korean version of the movie, the heroin was the girl from Windstruck and My Sassy Girl.

The Ring, Ju-On, Dark Water are some of the films being remake by the Hollywood. (Macam takde idea sgt nk buat movie). Kadang2 Hollywood versions are easier to understand, kadang tu sama jugak.

Dah byk dah tgk cite hantu smpi dah jadi penakut sket2. One of my friends said "Kalau takut buat pe tgk cite hantu." hehehe..ada point di situ.

There are some pattern or muster (german) to these films. If it is a japanese film, you dont have to understand it at all, because it will give you headache if you try to figure it out. The ghost kills sesuka hati e.g Ju-On.(err..writing this gives me goosebumps.. tgh sorang2 kat lab and lampu pulak tgh malap2 je) . Korean ghosts are usually after revenge and there are some sad stories behind it and of course, the ghosts have beautiful black sleek hair (Mcm mana nk dpt rmbt mcm tu eh?). Hmm..I would say Thailand horror/ghost films tops it all. Scaryy siott!! Rambut mmg tak lawa, serabut2, mata klabu2, darah2 sket, muka pucat....aaaa...tamau cite da.Takut!!

Asalnya nk cerita pasal apa yg dibuat ari ni. Da jadi merepek komen pasal cite hantu lak. Hehe.

Ok then. Mau balik and enjoy my weekend yg tak seberapa ni. Have a nice weekend everyone!!!

Cherry Plucking!

Will go cherry plucking on Saturday. Where? Behind the house of one of the lab assistants. He is really nice. He saw us climbing up the stairs and asked "Haben Sie kurze Zeit?" (Do you have a moment?). Then he went in his lab and offered us some cherries. Sedap tau cherry tu. And so he said that he has this two trees of cherries yg sedang berbuah dgn lebatnya. Then he asked us to come and pluck the cherries. Hehe. Our activity this Saturday. Going to carik recipe Black Forest Cake la. Mana tau kalau rajin buat... Hehehe.

SMSs

There are few things that i like to read over and over again to comfort myself. Whenever i'm feeling down or i feel like i couldnt do it, I'll read these and feel somehow a bit better.

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"Kita mmg tak mampu nk puaskan hati semua org. Just buat apa yg kita mampu and at
the same time jgn abaikan perasaan sendiri"

-Apad

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"Trust me. Trust yourself. Your heart knows. Growth is never easy nor comfortable.
But when you experience difficulty breaking away from your comfort zone, you are moving somewhere. You are growing. We all have to start somewhere. Just sooner or later, which depends on us."

-Inn

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"Tiap2 kali pas solat, doa. I pun buat"

-My Dad

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"It's okay. Little challenges to success"

-Inn

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"Bila nk balik sini?Pulau perhentian dah memanggil2 nama kita tuh..."

-Ainur

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"Tgh beli aiskrim. Bila awak nak balik? Rindu la..

-Tanjung

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I have my friends, my dear and my family : the wonderful people in my life. How could I not be thankful..

Rain & Car

It rained heavily this morning. And as the result, me, who always went to work later that i should, got wet knees down. Lucky i tak kena splashes of air lecak from the cars. And rite now, i'm in the lab, with wet shoes, wet socks and wet jeans. Tak best langsung!!!

On my way tadi, ada terfikir nk mintak tumpang je sape2 yang lalu. Serta merta terfikir..If tumpang kereta stranger or ada org offer nk tumpangkan, the following would happen (tak kira kat negara mana pun)..

1. The car owner wants something in return (money or tetiba nk berkenalan or something like that)

2. If it's your bad luck day, the car owner was actually a rapist and he drove you in the middle of nowhere and left you there (this one scary!! kadang2 org kita kenal buat mcm tu)

3. You will reach your destination safe and sound and dengan sendirinya berterima kasih to the car owner and the car owner also terasa best sbb telah membantu insan yg lemah sampai ke tempat tujuan. (abaikan bahasa tu)

4. Masuk dlm candid camera, wa kena beb atau rancangan2 yg sewaktu dengannya (ni paling kurang logik, tapi mungkin boleh jadi)

Tapi, if 1 and 2 lagi banyak daripada 3, most likely people won't trust people eventhough deep in their hearts they really want to help people in need.

Nota: menu tgh hari : apple strudel with vanilla sauce, 10 min lg, sabar2.

what am i thinking right now

1. Macam mana nk pindah nnt before balik ke Malaysia. Byk gile gile punya barang wa cakap lu.

2. To survive this Khamis, ada inspection. Cuaknya!!sb dlm bilik ada 2 org.

3. Am i a bad friend?because very close friend of mine tak reply my msgs.

4. Am i a control freak? I speak my mind aloud i like to do things my way. and if ppl want to terima my cadangan go ahead but if they dont, feel free to bg yg lain.

5. Nak sambung buat kerja ke nk buat lepas lepas makan je? konfem malas ni

6. Apa lagi nk tulis dlm blog ni?

7. Makan apa tgh ari ni?

8. Err..dah takde dah. Menjawab soalan no 5, buat la kerja sket kot.

Hari ini hari khamis

I'm in my lab, waiting for the UV-Lamp to cool down. I'd let it on so long that the results taken with the oscilloscope were different from what i expected they to be.

My lunch - Fischfillet mit Salzkartoffeln (Fish fillet with Salt-Potatoes). Mula2 ok lagi makan, tapi suap2 terakhir tu mmg susah nk telan. Looking forward for tommorows menu- Tintenfish (sotong) goreng!! Three years living here, i would say German food mmg tak bape sedap..hehe. Melayu tu melayu jugak. Their so called curry is like adding water to serbuk kunyit and some flour. Can you imagine how it tastes like? Maybe ada yg sedap, but so far, belum jumpa. So anyone, kalau nk bukak restaurant Melayu ke kat sini, memang akan laku. Even our biasa2 nasi goreng tu pun dah sedap gile utk diorg.

What else, hmm..basketball was fun. Main sampai peluh sakan. I played for fun only, no skills whatsoever. Dribble bola pun tak reti. I'll play usually from 6.30 or 7 pm until about 9 pm. Maybe some of u must be thinking apa kena la anak dara ni main maghrib2. My maghrib is at 9.30 ++ pm. Summer gelap lambat sgt. So if in Malaysia, it's like playing until 7 pm only. Balik makan, rest a bit, tunggu for Isya (around 11.40 ++ pm) , then tido. Bgn subuh around 4 am and 6 am dah terang mcm kol 8 am. Siang yg panjang, mlm yg pendek,tido tetap sama..8 jam jugak.

Haven't been reading any books latety. Any suggestion buku? My English kaputt dah. Hilfe!! (Help!!)

Yawn.

Must do work now.

Yawn lagi.

Ciao

Football fever!!

Germany won over Ecuador 3 : 0 . Wuuhuuuu!!! I watched the game at school yesterday. Kat foyer. They put up this white screen and set up benches. Sayangnya i have to say with my cute size, i couldn't see full screen with all the german student yg sizenya besar-besar itu duduk depan. And before this tak pernah nk kisah utk duduk dgn posture yg betul, utk game ni nampaknya terpaksa. Bukan tak nk duduk depan, dah penuh la..

There were lecturers, pengetua pun ada, students, lab assistants and even pakcik yg buat clean up tu pun ada, well dia singgah kejap je sbb kena jugak bersihkan kelas2. Just a few minutes and German scored!!! Riuh satu skolah. Hehe. Owh, every lab abis awal and even class ptg kol 3.45 pm tu pun takde kot. Best!

After the game abis, went straight back home. All the way balik tu akan dgr bunyi hon kereta. They honked their cars all the way smpi mana tatau. Bendera pun diorg kibar2 with the cars. Meriah!!! Sekurang-kurangnya ada la jugak merasa demam bola ni kat german.

Dah sampai bilik, solat, salin baju and time for basketball. Main sampai tak larat nk main. Setakat ni just main shoot2 bola je dulu. Baling2 tak masuk pun. I envy the boys, they have strong hands/arms and they can shoot dari jauh easily. Huhu. Eh, better envy their strength je kot, i dont want to have tgn besar2. Hehe

Okay. Almost lunch time. Ciao!!

My Thursday

I woke up later than usual today. Nasib baik bgn for Subuh (kol 330 am) . After that bantai tido balik tak ingat punya.

Hmm..td pegi tgk bola kat Stadt / Town. Tak byk org pun, guess the Germans tak suka England, sbb masa Trininad/Tobago attack je diorg sorak. Penyokong England yg setia kat situ - Lee. Masa he sorak for England, siap ada org pandang2. England won 2-0. I don't watch football pun, tapi alang2 dah ada ni and tak payah nk stay up semata2 nk tgk bola, tgk je la. Layan jugak lak. Cuma smpi sekarang, i still tak ingat2 apa maksud offside :p

This Friday maybe buat makan2. Main masak2 je kot. Tak sure nk buat sayur apa ni lagi. Acar?Kerabu? Ntahlah..

Owh, my lunar_1708 was hacked. Demmit. Dah la malas gila nk buat account baru. Benci la mcm ni.

Cikgu yg baik ati

smalam buat cuti sendiri..sbb nk betulkan balik kerja.

ari ni dtg, cikgu masuk..bagi cuti lagi ari jumaat, sbb kamis ni cuti awam.

mmg la cikgu ni baik ati.dah dua kali da dapat cuti mcm ni.hehe

I wrote down the things he said, so that saya tak lupa. i can be very forgetful when it comes to German languange.

okay.lunch time.

Ich muss

Something is not right with me. And i have to find what is.

I have to set my priorities back.

I must be thankful for what i have.

I must work hard.

I should eat veggies and fruits more.

Phewww!!

Okay, my cuti-ambik-sendiri was splendid!! Detox, kayak and mainau. And, i am on my third book. Hehehe.My detox was not really a complete detox but i can see the result. Ada la sikit improvement. But after all the hard work detoxing, i ended up eating lagi byk mende2 yg tak berzat. Hehe.My aim is to detox once more before i balik this coming summer. And also kena mkn byk buah lepas ni.

Mainau was ok. Bunga tak byk tapi ok la. The flowers rosak sikit sbb hujan je minggu lepas. Roses baru berputik, belum bunga lagi. Maybe next time la kot boleh tgk bunga2 lain.

Kayak...hmm..ok kot. Just that, i had to kayak alone, and takut siot kayak sorang2. I haven't kayak for ages. And i can't swim. Jadi la saya kayak zig zag kat Bodensee tu. Huhuhu. Penat sbb asyik cuba kayak lurus. Imagine how i felt bila ada bot besar lalu and membawa arus yg berombak2. Takuttttt!!! takut kayak tu terbalik je. Orang lain semua can kayak laju2 and lurus. Me? Hehs!! Left right left right left left left..oii..lurus2 la kayak!!!

About someone..

He loved her very much. They have been together for 7 years. He first knew her when she was 18, he was 27. Yup, quite a huge gap for their age, but they started to like each other, ignoring what other people said. They discovered that they actually lived in the same city and they began to share many things together. Soon, their love began to blossom.

He was mature and cool. She in the other hand, well let's just say that she's like lalang-yg-ditiup-angin. Not that she followed everything that he said but it was more like, one day she like the color red, the next day she would hate it. It's not entirely her fault she's like that; it's more likely the side effect from the medication she's on. She suffered from an illness- like a cyst in her womb. She had a few operations and the doctor gave her medicine to prevent any further infection or the cyst from spreading. The medicine however made her had that lalang-attitude. And as a result from the operations, she cannot give birth after 30 as it would endangers her life. He knew about this, and he didn't mind, he loved her anyway. He just hope she could at least control her 'pms' a bit. They did broke up a few times but they got back together eventually.

After 4 years together, he went overseas to further his studies. From his country it took about 11 hours with plane to reach there. They survived this long-distance relationship although some people said it was really hard. They wrote emails, cards and of course telephoned each other. One day he popped the question. And she said yes. They went on planning for their marriage - he was still overseas and he had finished his studies and was offered a job there. He took on the job and ask whether she would come to him and live with him (overseas) after their marriage. And again she said yes. He applied for holiday to fly back home and get married, but it was rejected as the project was still new and they needed to do a lot of research. Their marriage-plan was postponed until he can fly back home.

A few months later, she starts sending emails telling him that she changed her mind - he should quit his work and come to her instead. And after that, their quarrel began- they can quarreled even about little things. Before this, he would feel excited to get any emails from her. But now it was like "Now what?", as he knows another emails means another quarrel with her. Their relationship started to 'shake'. Only after a year later he can fly back home. By this time, she was already 25 and he was 34. He flied back home, trying to save their relationship from breaking again.

When he reached home, he called her immediately. No answer. Nevertheless, he kept on trying. On the third day, she called.

She : " I thought you don't want to meet me anymore"

He was disappointed with her voice tone and the way she spoke him. Of course he wants to meet her. That was one of the reasons he went back home. Soon, she started to pick a fight with him again. He was again disappointed, he flied 11 hours back home and found himself in the same situation he was before, arguing on the phone instead meeting of face to face. Their quarrel ended up with she wanting to break up with him.

With calm cool voice he said, "Okay.We'll do just that."

Her voice started to rise again, " What? It's all your fault!! You come back here without wanting to meet me and then this happen!"

He said, " Okay, we'll meet then," keeping his voice cool although he started to feel a bit angry. My fault? I called her the minute i reached the airport and i'm the one to blame.

She was still histerical and argued but later agreed meeting him 2 days later.

During the two days, he sat quietly and thought about this relationship over. He could no longer be patient with her.He thought, "She agreed to come with me to start a new life overseas but she changed her mind. She blamed me for everything that happened to our relationship like she has no fault at all. She picked up fights frequently. She..." and at that moment he realised that he just can't go on with this relationship. This time, he had to think with his head rather than his heart. He finally came up with a decision. If she would come with him, he would gave her another chance otherwise it would be the end of their story.

When they finally met, she went to him and hugged him.

"I am so sorry of what i said the last time. Can we just forget this entire thing and move on. I want to us to be together again. I love you," she said.

He looked at her. Did she remember what she said the last time? She's the one who wants this whole thing and what's with the just??

Finally he said, "Only in one condition, you have to come with me"

"Where to?" she asked , hoping she could undo the damage.

"Back to where i am working. There. We'll start a living there. It is much better that here. I have a stable job and we could..."

"That is not even in question! You know i don't want to go there , " she protested, cutting his sentence. Her voice started to rise.

"Then, i'm sorry."

"But you'll come back here again for good.. right?", she quickly add as she realised she was going to loose him forever.

"Maybe, but only for holidays. I have my life there. I just want someone who i can share it all with. And it seems to me that you don't want to be that person" he said, his voice was still calm although his heart had begun to hurt.

This is the right choice, he thought. This is the right choice.

"I thought you love me.." she said, crying.

"And i thought you said you want to follow me in the first place. But you changed your mind. You changed your mind so quicky like you change your clothes. I am tired of this. Who knows maybe one day you say you love me and the next day you don't; one minute we are married and the next we aren't. I just can't take this anymore."

After 7 years being together, they broke up, for real. This time there is no turning back. When he went home, his heart went numb. He was really heart-broken. His friends told him that he should think about his decision again but he said he could no longer be in a relationship that is going no where. Sometimes he wanted to call her but he just couldn't. He watched tv but his mind was elsewhere - he was depressed. He surfed from channel to channel but nothing seems to catch his eyes. As the result from depression, he has psoriasis. He went to 3 different doctors to make sure it's not just skin-allergy. The doctor explained that a lot of stress can trigger this disease as well as genetic factor. But since his family never had it before, he was certain it was because the depression his having. Great! This is what i got from 7 years of relationship and now i have this.

Two weeks gone by and he's now back at overseas. He searched for informations about this disease and apparently there is no cure. One can only keep it under control but can never really cure it. Although it will go away, there are possobilities of getting it again. He did a lot of sports, kept himself busy with work and put on the cream prescribed by the doctor. Lucky for him, it helps. He reminds himself not to be depressed again. His heart had hurt but it was a decision he thought was best. The heart must follow what the head says.

As for her, she cried her heart out but it was no use. She had lost someone very dear, someone who is very patient with her for 7 whole years. And it occured to her that she might not see him again..


Note: Tak tau pun nape tulis mende ni. Terima kasih kerana membaca.

Hoou Yeah!!

Setelah sebulan lebih, akhirnya misi membaca satu buku cerita telah berjaya. I bought Memoirs of a Geisha on my way home to Offenburg. I was waiting for the train in Karlsruhe and there was lots of time to spare. After eating a sundae at McD, i walked to the nearest bookshop (Note : Place- Karlsruhe Train Station). I had 10 euros in my wallet and decided to buy something, a magazine or a book, anything, as long as i can read something on the train later on.

Then i came upon this book. I've heard about it but i never read it. My interest for books ceased some time ago and i haven't read a single book except the latest Harry Potter series. That, was last year ago and that took me weeks to finish. Anyways, i bought Memoirs of a Geisha. And i am very happy to say it triggers my interest for books again. I read the book bit by bit for the first 2 weeks and i kept putting it dow-I had other things to settle first. So the book was on my shelf for one and a half week. Last Tuesday i picked it up and this time i was determine to finish the book. I brought it along to school. Whenever i had the chance, i would read the book. And finally.. abis dah ari ni!!!

Saya amat gembira kerana saya sudah habis membaca buku tersebut. Saya harap saya akan terus suka membaca, tidak kira buku ataupun majalah kerana dengan membaca saya boleh banyak menimba ilmu pengetahuan. (Note: Dah lama tak buat ayat dlm BM mcm tulis karangan.Oh..teringat cikgu BM form 4, Cikgu Amin)