30 minutes

I usually started my day off with reading not story books, but more to self-help books. It is good to get the brain to start working early in the morning. Well, okay, not that morning, but that's mostly how i spent my mornings in the train. 30 minutes of reading something.( Except for the times when i feel so tired und just stare blankly at the window)

Previously, i read story books. The thing about story books are they are hard to put down. I found myself wanting to read more and more, i read pages after pages. I dreaded to put the book down when the 30 minutes ended. As a result, I couldnt really concentrate on my work (the story keep playing in my mind although) and the feeling to finish the book is there and quite strong throughout the day. Not that i couldn't really concentrate on my work, but which is more relaxing?

Self-help books are better. The brain have to work more on understanding, and a 30-minutes-input is enough.I can ponder all i want about the point i've read, and probably i could put it into use when i am working. Can anyone please suggest book(s) that you think that is good; self-help, motivation etc etc. Thank you!

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I completely salute my sisters. They are great people, they have achieved great things and they are just great! I on the other hand, subconciously put myself on a limit. It's like all these great things are behind a door and all these years, i have avoided to even grab the handle. Limitations. Things i can't do or won't do, things that i thought that are beyond my limit. Although sometimes there are times where mini-me wanted to open that door and explore. But the Other kept telling me that is safer not to open it. To be in this side of the door.

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There were times when i feel that my pride is wounded. Fullstop.

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En. Apad, thanks for always being there (sbb cannot here)for me. I appreciate you and your effort to make this long-distance relationship work. It's more hard work now but we'll get through okay! ich liebe dich! :p

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Oh my dear friends, where are you. Send me an email ke about what you are doing, how you've been doing?I really really miss you guys. A comment here also will do. :)

p/s: i have a lot in my mind, haven't i?

Kvetch.

I know that I kvetch almost about everything.

I dont even know how to say kvetch, but i do know that i kvetched occasionally, well okay, most of the time.

Are you a kvetch?

The Other

There are many things I did, that in a split second I come to regret the actions I took, the thoughts I thought and the things I said. I don't like who i am becoming.

The battle between my heart and my conscience happens every single day. I’m living not as me but in the role of the Other. The Other critizes me on my every action, thoughts. She tells me what to do, be very much concern with what people may think of me, making up excuses to justify whatever wrong it told me to do and the worst part telling me that no matter what I do or did, that I am not good enough.

How long until I'll able to control the Other and really cast it out. It doesn’t take a just an hour or a day, but it could take months. I really need to do this, for me. I don’t want the Other to control me. Then again, as i am writing this, she's right here beside me.

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Saya mau pulang…

Kebetulan

Just when i feel tertekan sbb program ini, i read this on Friendster.

.Horoscope for today.

The Bottom Line

Through trial and error, you'll eventually perfect your technique. Just keep going.(Just the motivation i needed)

In Detail
This is going to feel like a long, slow day(it is the least productive day) -- but it is also a day that offers you plenty of time to experiment with new ways of doing things. Acting differently than you normally do might put a few people on edge, but don't let that stop you. When you're trying to figure out who you are, you cannot be held back by who other people think you are. You have to forge your own way in life, so why not start now? After all, you're not getting any younger!(<---dang!)

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p/s: Sampai-sampaikan eh kat member2 lain :)