Kvetch -2

1. The one thing i notice nowadays is :People are making lots and lots of complaint nowadays. Every single thing is being complained whether its about the road, football, the government, even head of village became the subject of complaint.

2. Rights( hak). Another thing that people strongly believe they have. The right to smoke anywhere, the right to complain on the newspaper, tv, radio, the right to love even though some one else's husband/wife.

3. Maybe the reason is people tend to forget one very important thing to do. Be grateful/ Bersyukur.

4. Being grateful will make we less bitter and accept life as it is. But dont get me wrong, it does not mean that i want to be grateful for life as it is and will not do anything to improve it. Its completely the opposite. Be grateful with life and try to improve ur life so that there's more to be grateful with. As simple as it sounds, its one hard thing to do.

5. I'm writing this as a reminder to myself. Look around, what we dont like about other people could be reflecting of what we are actually doing or even ourselves. There is only one and will be only one who is perfect.

Kvetch!

I am now facing the same problem now as i did not so long ago. Anyone can see it right away when looking at me.

I keep thinking, will it ever go away and never ever occur again. I dont really know, as far as i know, even the strongest medicine created for it can only keep it away for one year. I am frustrated.

Manyak sedih oo.. ke benda ni kita kena tak fikir baru dia okay? asyik datang balik je stakat ni. Aduhai..

Sedang mencuba sesuatu yang baru, masih mahu berharap and mahu mencuba sesuatu yang tidak menggunakan dadah.

Kereta oh kereta

(Malam2 raya cina ni pun, cite hantu..mmg orang Malaysia ni suka sangat cite hantu agaknya)

Sebenarnya saya baru je tahun lepas reti kembali bawak kereta. Lepas ambik lesen lepas SPM dulu saya jarang sangat bawak kereta. Kalau ke mana-mana mesti dihantar. Masa belajar pun naik train dan bus. Lebih mudah. Lagipun bawak kereta manual mcm tak confident..nnt mati enjin..

Tapi, lepas ada kereta sendiri yang auto tu pun sebenarnya saya takut nk bawak kereta, lagi2 di bandar. Menakutkan! nasib baik auto tak mati enjin kan..Lepas setahun ada kereta baru saya jadi lebih berani. Nak tak nak terpaksa kena sendiri untuk pergi kerja. Kerja pulak 50.5 km dari rumah. Sejam pergi dan sejam balik.

Penakut tu tak hilang lagi. Stil tak berani bawak kereta di beberapa tempat. Kalau seorang lagilah takut. Takut sesat! hehe..

Ntah apa2 je sebenarnya ni. tapi tu la yang sebenarnya..

(Semalam mimpi ngeri, pasal kerja.. i guess i think about work a lot more than i want to..aiseh..kena jumpa kaunselor la ni)

Ni cerita minggu lepas, tapi diceritakan juga sbb dah terbayang dah nak post sekali dengan gmbr..

Hari Isnin yang lepas, saya cuma kerja separuh hari, sbb ptg perlu outstation (ewah), dan balik ke ofis semula pada hari Rabu. Hari Rabu, sampai ofis entah mcm mana tergerak la hati nk selak langsir tingkap (yang jenis mcm blind.. ke mcm mana ntah nk describe, sila rujuk gambar di bawah sekali) sebelum bukak tingkap. Bila dibuka langsir tu, jadi ternampaklah lebah-lebah melekap-lekap kat tingkap bilik.

Ingatkan yang 5-6 ekor tu je rupanya..ni ha..satu keturunan dia ada. Dah sempat buat sarang rupanya dalam 2 hari tu..

Nasib baik belum bukak tingkap tadi...fuhh

Ni pandangan dari luar..besar dah rupanya. Cepat betul lebah ni buat kerja. Kan bagus kalau orang boleh kerja macam lebah..Klik kat gmbr untuk tengok lebih besar.

Komen paling favourite/banyak diorang bagi pasal lebah yang bersarang kat luar bilik ni..

1. "Madu lebah takpe, jangan ber-madu"

2. "Banyak-banyak bilik, bilik anak dara ni juga yang dia minat.."


Errr..tatau nk cakap apa utk komen no.2..

Kawan-kawan, Lama dan Baru

Alhamdulillah, saya banyak berpeluang untuk berjumpa dengan orang-orang yang baik dan best. Cuma, masalahnya satu..saya ni tak berapa reti nak berkawan. Bukan bermaksud sombong, cuma masalah utama - saya ni pelupa. Kat mana kawan-kawan kerja hampir semuanya saya tak berapa nak ingat. Takut nnt mereka ingat mereka ini tak penting dalam hidup saya, jadinya saya lebih suka mendiamkan diri.

Saya teringin nak buat movie weekend ke dengan mereka, keluar minum sekadar berborak-borak kosong mahupun yang ada isi tapi..tak terjadi lagi. Saya simpankan dulu hajat ni..tapi saya sangat berharap nnt saya ni a part of something. tapi lagi satu, benda takkan jadi kalau kita tak initiate kan (banyak betul tapi *sigh~)

Tahun baru ini, mungkin tak salah kalau saya mahukan perubahan.

Mudah-mudahan tercapai..

Bertenang juga akhirnya,,

I've been on the "trying-to-get-more-things-done-before-balik" mode since morning. Okay, not excatly from eight la kan. When the clock is nearing to 4 p.m, i almost panicked..there's still a lot more to be done..aigoooo..macam mana ni..

But writing a "things-to-be-done" list is really really helpful. Not that to-do list, this is more like want i want to accomplish for the day. Maybe there are 3 things on the list maybe 4. Baru realistic. Plus i am getting really forgetful nowadays (banyak makan semut nih). The reminder is VERY helpful. Mind you, the 3 things do have their subs....so its actually 3 main things that i want to do.

But still..i am having problems structuring my ideas. Maybe i should ambik kelas bahasa English and Malay ( tgk ayat di blog juga sudah tahu kan). Tahu tak kat mana?

Ha-chum! (dusty)

I suddenly have this urge to write. Been blogging inside my head lately. i want to write about this and i also want to write about that. So many things happened, but then..no idea how to put them into words. I rarely take pictures anymore. So, jadinya bila simpan di kepala..cepat je lupa.

Life's too short. I want to do so many things in life but realize that time is the one thing that i don't have (technically, nobody owns time...kan?). Been wanting to learn swimming, art, music etc2. I want to travel the world again..tapi..ongkosnya buk! adeh..memang tak boleh nak kata apalah bila semuanya perlukan duit.
Masuk tahun baru, umur pun bertambah. Kerut dan kedut pun tambah. Lagi bertambah bila orang dah sibuk tanya pasal kawen. (kalau lah kawen tu guna 10 hinggit je da laaaamaa dah kawen dah). Ada jodoh ada la kan..takde jodoh lagi nk buat mcm mana.. :(

Kerja..ada peningkatan. yeay! full stop, saya cuba untuk tak cerita pasal kerja di sini.

Haa,, ada sesiapa tahu kat mana nak belajar lukisan?(selain sekolah ye)..saya mcm nak belajar melukis semula. rugi rasa dah lama tak melukis dan cuba untuk buat sesuatu yang lain dari kerja. Rindu nak melukis pun ada. Terasa mcm kreatif pulak dulu. Macam-macam boleh buat..

Serabut rupanya kepala ni..tgk cara menulis pun tahu..kan?

Oh ye..Happy 2011!!! hehehe..amacam.ada azam baru?

p/s : terasa mcm mereka abang dan adik..jangan marah ye mama2 baby

Kalau Ikut Kan Hati..

Memang, kalau diikutkan hati banyak benda yang dah dibuat sekarang ni.. tapi hati tu tak selalunya betul. Lagi-lagi bila hati tu kita tak tahu dah tahap mana boleh ikut. Kadang-kadang rasa mcm betul, selalunya jugak macam tak. ntah la..

Banyak juga benda yang dirasakan tak perlu, tapi sebenarnya perlu. Yang patut, tapi sebenarnya tak patut. Ego rasa diri sendiri betul, sbb jarang ditegur. Bila ditegur sikit, rasa tak patut dan marah. Orang biasanya akan marah sbb dia mmg fikir dia betul..ntah la jugak..

Bila dah *****, byk jugak jumpa orang yang macam-macam perangainya..campur dengan diri sendiri lagi, mmg pening kepala kalau difikirkan. Banyak betul sikap yang tak tahu juga nk dikatakan mcm mana. Bila masa nk jadi pro dan bila masa nk ketepikan isu personal. ntah la jugaaakkk

Last sekali, apa yang boleh buat...duduk je la diam-diam.

Now, now...

Okay, i admit. I just cannot update my blog as often as i wanted to. Not that i dont want to, but there are just few reasons ( the main one is lazy of course) why i didn't blog.

Here's why.
1. I'm lazy (duhh..)
2. I dont even think that anyone actually reads my blog (i think that's because i dont update..hehehe)
3. I'm experiencing writer's block (heh! as if my previous entry are like essays)
4. .....

I'm out of reason, for now. But, i think why i didnt blog is because i didnt feel like it. I have nothing to share. My life is mainly a routine. Work, eat, sleep and that's about that every single day. On weekends i belong to my family. Ever since i berani sikit to drive, that's what i do almost every weekend (Note : not complaining at all, i love driving them around. It's because i think there's not much that can do for them. At least i can get them to places and make them happy)

Last week was the first time that i went out with friends at night in Batu Pahat. I cant remember when is the last time i went out watching movies, or makan-makan in Batu Pahat. Haiya, this girl has little social life.

I should go out some more la...movies, shopping, makan ka. Anyone interested? JOM!

Mixed

Well well..2 months is not that bad. The same thing happen every time when i wanted to update my blog. I can have so many things to write about when I'm not in front of the computer and be completely blank when i am. Duhh..

I really wanted to meet friends during weekends, watch some movies, chit chat ke.. but i dont know of who is around in BP. So, siapa-siapa yang baca ini, ajaklah daku. Saya ni penyegan orangnya. Seriously! Tapi kadang-kadang untuk kes terpencil, saya memang sudah mengantuk bila dah pukul 11 tu..hehe..

Dan saya juga rindukan zaman belajar dulu, rindukan tempat, kawan-kawan..pendek kata semuanya.

I just got back from Sabah last week. I didnt have the chance to travel and i did go there alone. So macam bosan/menakutkan juga bila mahu jalan sorang-sorang tu. Bukan apa, untuk keselamatan diri. Bahaya juga kalau budak kecik jalan sorang-sorang. :p

But, bile berjalan sorang ni kadang-kadang lagi ramai kawan kita jumpa. Sebab dah desperate nak bercakap juga dengan orang, saya tebalkan juga muka untuk berkenalan dengan rakan-rakan baru. Dan memang worth it. I really owe a lot to Kak Faridah & hubby, because without her, i would be spending my last night in Sabah alone and hungry. Tunggu ye, nnt saya cuba hntr benda itu. Mmg pengalaman jugak la bila makan dekat kedai di tepi pantai tu dan tiba-tiba blackout. Gelap gelita! Nasib baik dah habis makan. Hehe.

There's this one thing that i really wanted to do at work. And i am going to make it happen.

I WILL make it happen.

That change will come.

Change?

Change is easy. It became difficult to some people, when they were too used or comfortable with something. Complacency has become them and they are satisfied with where they are now/what they have.

Try suggesting something different to these people and you can see all sort of expressions. Smile, maybe, thanking that finally someone realized something. Anxious or angry, questioning the power of the one who suggested the change. Or maybe, nothing..they just continue with whatever it is they are doing, minding their own business.

Do you like change? Do I like change? How to make people like to change?

Ntahla labi..

Cuti!!

Ambik cuti last week, but last2 pendekkan cuti sbb kerja dah menunggu. Tapi Alhamdulillah, dapat jugak bawak mak abah g cameron. Walaupun sekejap je, cukup la. Jejak jugak kaki mak kat situ. Tapi semua ni takkan jadi kalau tak sebab ada Kak Cin. Makan minum tempat tinggal sume dia tolong uruskan. Ambik gambar sikit, tapi ada pada Apad gmbrnya. Jadi tak dapatlah nk upload.

Al-Fatihah buat junior Offenburg, Zira.. She was a fantastic girl with a great heart. I learned few things about life from her without even realising it.

And.. dah terlupa pulak nak tulis apa lagi. :p..

Takpe, asal ada update ni. :)

Even after all these talks about..

updating my blog more, i still couldn't write at least once a month. Reason : i am too lazy to switch on my laptop because then i'll be running away from Aisy. How time flies and how he has grown. He can already walk now, well actually, he runs! He can walk two weeks before his first birthday.

About me, I havent really keep in touch with all m y friends. From TIG*S, J*asin, IN*TEC and even FH*O. The fact that my old phone is kaputt contributes to the factor. And no one have texted me except few, which of course made my day (or the others dont really notice i am around this whole time).

Work has been hectic, well a bit. I tried not to bring work at home. Home is a place to relax. Menghadap PC manjang, so balik takde la rajin nak bukak PC.

Alamak...Aisy datang. nnt dia ketuk laptop. Hehe.

Sape yang rajin terbaca blog ni...HI!!!!!!! Good to know ada lagi yang baca.

:)

Cerita baru.

Jeng jeng jeng....

Inilah dia kereta saya. Kenapa saya pilih biru? saya pun tak sure sekarang ni kenapa. Tapi yang pastinya dia nampak kurang kotor dari jauh bila saya lambat pergi basuh kereta dan kereta tu comel. Hehe. Cuma sekarang ni masih terkedek2 belajar nak bawak kereta. Nasib baik beli auto, kalau manual mahunya berpeluh2 bila kereta mati engin tengah2 jalan. Naya! Ni bukan kes lesen terbang ye, ni kes lesen yang disimpan buat pekasam.

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Aisy Wafi ada dengan mama dia sekarang. Sampai2 rumah dia tgh malam dari kampung, Aisy terus baca majalah2 yang dia boleh capai (baca = makan). Aktif merangkak seluruh rumah. Sampai ke dapur pun dia nak pergi. Gigi dah ada lapan walaupun dia baru nak masuk sembilan bulan. Aisy jugak dah makan dan ketuk2 handphone saya. Sekarang ni handphone saya dah rosak! tapi bukan sbb Aisy makan. Sbb dah selalu sangat jatuh dan kena ketuk kot. Jadi sekarang ni, saya tak ada nombor sesiapa pun. So people, please do sms me your number, but dont forget to write your name.

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Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan dan berpuasa juga pada semua. And to Pn. Farizah, selamat melahirkan nnt. Semoga selamat melahirkan without any complication.

p/s: Tahun ni mungkin jadi tahun pertama selepas 6 tahun, adik beradik semua dapat berkumpul masa raya. Tapi tgk pada keadaan macam mana. mungkin dapat, dan mungkin juga tidak. Mudah-mudahan dapat...aminnn

Bulan 8

Hehe.. i turned one year older today. Weird having my colleagues singing me a birthday song. The last time i remember having a birthday party was in 2001, at KFC Sect. 18. Before that, tak pernah ada, except that one time Kak Inn had to share her cake with me.

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Well work, kena lah work harder nampaknya..Kerja takkan la asyik nak mengelak aje, sampai bila la kan. Sooner or later i had to face whatever it is that i'm avoiding. Tapi seemed that somehow attracted errr...ntah. Not ready to tell that yet.

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Dan saya dah pergi jumpa baby Lana! Very comel, thick hair. Her mummy also looking good, despite dalam pantang lagi eh? Ke? Lepas tu ada jugak baby Hadif (Kak Zulfa's), and Adam El-Fareez (Fatin's). Baby Auni dah balik KL, missed her.

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Baru belajar main volleyball, hehe. Menarik jugak main volley. Lawan dalam hujan tu, interesting. Boleh la main sikit2 setelah lebam2 tangan segala, jadi macam tangan Dumbledore sikit. Other than that, i also played netball (again. after meninggalkan netball untuk basketball). Tapi main tengah panas terik, merah muka lepas habis game. I only played for WA, tak cukup stamina nak jadi C, haha. Yang jadi C, fuyyohh! Macam tai-chi bak kata orang lain..hehe.

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Tahniah Puan Azimah!! Nampaknya saya seorang je wakil Jasin yang pergi wedding anda (dah la datang lambat, hehe :p) But you look cantik, ayu dan jelita.

Okaylah dulu. macam ada benda lain nak diceritakan. tapi mingkin boleh untuk next time.

Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone. :D

Thanks juga pada yang masih tgk jugak blog ni walaupun jarang update.
sikit2 jiwa kacau jugak ni. aishh

I am indeed surprised

I watched Macam-Macam Aznil, the old season of course. The one that he invited traditional dancers and then he asked the one or two of the audiences to dance along. On todays episode, it was Zapin Hanuman (Hanuman = Monkey). He later asked a boy to join the dancers. Well, of course you guys can predict how the boy danced - almost like a robot. Then it hit me, this boy must be familiar with that dance- shuffle (or whatever they call it), because his foot kind of stuck on the floor each time he does the kicking action.

What a pity when we as Malaysian, couldn't even dance our traditional dance anymore. The grace that we once had was gone and replaced with i don't even know what to call it. Pity.

We have so many types of dances; Malay, Chinese and Indian are few of them. I myself cannot perform Malay traditional dance well but at least i did try my best whenever i had the chance to do so. If only i had the gracefulness..

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On the other hand, i am rather surprised to read my previous entries (dated 3 years ago). Those entries were longer, written with simple English (agaknya la) and made more sense than the recent one. I wish i could write like that again. Need more practice.

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521. Australian Network. Tun Mahathir is speaking about the importance of knowledge. Reading is to learn. I am amazed with Tun Mahathir. He really contributed a lot to this country. I need not say more.

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Saya mahu tengok Baby Lana Arissa. Tapi bila ye? Hmm....

Meeting?

It has not yet been a month and i managed to write another post. Yeay! Berjaya jugak lah nak tulis lagi satu cerita walaupun takde idea.

About work. Saya kerja di Int*n, Kluang. Hmm..akan datang tugas saya memerlukan saya bercakap depan orang ramai (suatu benda yang saya mmg cukup lemah, huuu). Selain tu, uruskan kursus dan benda2 yang sewaktu dengannya. Tapi tu jelah yang saya boleh ceritakan ttg tugas saya. Nak cerita lebih2 pun saya sendiri tengah belajar.

Since end of April, i've been meeting lots and lots of people. My batch, people at work, people whom i met at kursus. I like all of them. I like meeting people, but at times i can be very very shy and afraid to start the conversation. Has anyone has any tips on this?

Pengurusan masa masih lagi belum top. Office belum lagi dikemas sepenuhnya. Barang2 orang lama ada lagi dalam bilik tu. Kena kemas sikit2. Tentang kerja saya masih belum tahu banyak perkara. But i am learning,walaupun masih berkarat lagi, saya kena cepat aware tentang persekitaran saya. Barulah boleh saya belajar dengan cepat.

Baru balik kursus di Rompin minggu lepas dari Ahad hingga Khamis. Ahad ni gerak ke KL pulak, ada meeting. Kena ikut dan belajar.

Okay. Nak main ngan Aisy. hehe.

Saya dan Kerja

Sampai hari ini belum jelas lagi apa yang perlu saya buat. Tapi tak bermaksud saya nak merungut saya tak ada kerja, sebabnya saya tahu bila kerja dah menimbun lain pulak jadinya. Saya tetap bersyukur sebab saya berjumpa dengan kawan-kawan baru yang menarik, pelbagai personaliti dan latar belakang. I wouldn't trade my two weeks for anything.

Saya akan bekerja di Kluang. Buat masa sekarang saya akan berulang dari Batu Pahat ke Kluang, tapi akan cari juga kalau2 ada cara lain yg lebih mudah nnt utk saya. Takut jugak bila fikir pasal kerja ni. Takut sebab pengalaman bekerja tu tak ada. Dan saya perlu cepat menyesuaikan diri di tempat kerja tu nnt.

Kadang2 saya tak faham dengan sikap rakyat Malaysia yang mmg suka sangat komplen pasal kerajaan. Sikit2 nak komplen. Salah sikit komplen. Saya rasa kalau dia yang dapat tanggungjawab memimpin komfem pening kepala dia tak tido malam. Memang ada segelintir pemimpin yang apabila mereka ada di atas, mereka lupa dan lalai dengan kuasa dan duit yang disogokkan. Tapi tak semua begitu.

Tak sempat nak keep in touch dengan rakan2 lama. Pada yang hendak menyambut cahaya mata, atau yang hendak berkahwin dan bertunang, tahniah ye!

Kalau ada rezeki kita akan berjumpa, tak kiralah mungkin di kenduri2 kahwin atau terserempak dimana2.

Okay. Sampai nanti.

Photoshop

I've been wanting to upload some of my photos online since i dont remember when. I did actually had a flickr account, then i deleted it for a reason i dont remember why.

Now, here it is again : click here.

Enjoy the pics. I am still learning how to take pictures and still need coaching on photoshop. My editing s**ks.

Okay peeps. Later!

Oh yes

YES! I finally got me a job. I felt better now that finally i'm going to have one (contract not signed yet) and at the same time am worried whether can i do it well? Its on contract basis for two years. And certainly i must pass their requirementsss before having it permanent.

On the other hand, I do think that leaving this blog dusty and all made me forget how to write. How to express myself in longer sentences that make sense. Being able to express myself in writing meant something to me because it kept me sane. And I intend to be so for the rest of my life. I do feel jealous reading other blogs especially those who wrote beautiful sentences and have cool stories to share. I want to be one of them.

Ouch. My head hurts. I cant think more than two paragraphs for now. But its a progress, and i am grateful for that.

I want to write more. I will write more.

ps: i miss taking pictures with rukia